What If I Chose It?

This can be one of the most revealing questions to ask yourself in regard to your self-healing journey: What does it mean, if I chose this illness or condition? It leads to the next question: If I did choose this, what was I hoping to discover or gain?

When I began my self-healing journey many years ago, I wouldn’t have considered these questions. My pain was the result of someone else’s abuse (or lack of care) toward me, or genetic predisposition and that was the end of the exploration. I would heal because I would generate enough love, knowledge and support to do so, but I wasn’t going to entertain the idea that I might have actually chosen it.

It was years before I considered the possibility that I chose this body, this life and my unique experiences because I came to earth with an intention, and the fulfillment of that intention included healing conditions I had allowed or even chosen.

In order to experience greater ability to self-heal, I needed to consider those two questions: 1) What does it mean if I chose this illness or condition? and 2) If I did choose this, what was I hoping to discover?

I finally got my courage up and asked myself about the seemingly impossible—that I had chosen my physical condition.

It can be quite freeing and empowering to explore in great depth exactly why you might have chosen this life and all that it entails. Imagine the freedom of discovering why you have a chronic illness, were sexually abused, or seem to become ill so easily. You realize that the world and people around you are no longer (and never were) in control of your experiences.

You are the one that chose and packed your bags with talents and abilities that would help you awaken to your true potential. Every challenge was and is an opportunity to broaden your perspectives, accepting the Divine and limitless nature of who you truly are.

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ess to you, you might not believe that you did choose this reality. Even if you don’t believe it, I’d like to recommend the exercise anyway. Even as a creative endeavor, you are likely to discover something about yourself.

If you do believe you are the creator of your reality, you still might find the exercise reveals nuances and insights about your journey that could be quite helpful in making self-healing choices for yourself during this particular time.

Early on I thought, if I discovered I had actually chosen all the challenges my life seemed to present to me, I simply wouldn’t be able to bear it. I would see myself as a tyrant to myself. I would curl up in despair.

In truth, I found the opposite to be true. Exploring the possibility that I had chosen and accepted, and even created, some or all of my most profound experiences—difficult and easy—was empowering. If I had created it, I was completely free to recreate it and fulfill my intentions.?? Recognizing and embracing myself as the creator was pivotal to my healing. My self-healing was exponentially more powerful. I explored in greater depth and with greater confidence my own healing gifts and applied them with a sense of knowing that what I created could be recreated.

I have seen others discover the same for themselves. To know you have chosen your life (the wonderful and the challenging parts of life) is to know that you are the one that can fulfill it—you are the chosen one that chose yourself.