A Healer's Journey Through Fear

I awoke again this morning with the unwelcome presence of fear gripping my soul in an all-too-familiar death grip. I always know when my fear shows up on the scene by the way my third chakra is calling my attention, in this case... screaming! (In Sanskrit, a chakra is defined as a spinning wheel of light and there are seven of them situated within the body from the top of the head to the base of the spine.) Most people recognize their third chakra as a gut level reaction; gnawing sensation; relentless irritation; or an uncomfortable feeling that one literally experiences somewhere in the abdominal region. An out of control, rapidly spinning third chakra is the body’s warning system trying to catch your attention! It’s palpable, unmistakable and generally a sensation that most people dislike immensely. I'm no exception.

Most people tend to do whatever is necessary to make this uncomfortable sensation go away! That’s usually not the best approach, however. Acknowledging the feeling, identifying its source and dealing with it head-on is a much more effective tactic. Doing so can literally keep you from experiencing a horrific event, avert an accident and paying attention to this warning system can also save your life! The third chakra sounds off an alarm when one is in danger and it also makes its presence known when a person is frightened or scared. The fear that has become my near-constant companion falls into this second category.

Fear is often described as the acronym: False Evidence Appearing Real. Most people can relate to this scenario. Just about everyone has experienced fear on this level. Most of the time humans conquer this classification of fear by forging through their perceived fear by adopting a mindset akin to the Nike slogan, we… Just Do It! And once we break through it, our perceived fear becomes ancient history. n
I truly wish that the fear that has its grip on me fell into this category. Why? Because, if it was this form of fear, it would have been healed by now from all of the EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) tapping that I have done of late. And I’ve done a lot of EFT tapping. It has been extremely beneficial in taming my fear, making it manageable but it has not been successful in collapsing my fear once and for all. The fact that things have unfolded this way reveals another path that I know I must follow.

As a healer, who’s trained as an EFT practitioner (I’m also a hypnotherapist, a Reiki practitioner and an intuitive) this is really frustrating! I can’t even begin to express how exasperating this non-resolution outcome has been for me. Nor is it an uncommon phenomenon. The axiom, ‘Physician heal thyself!’ doesn’t always apply. There is a reason why it’s a common practice for physician’s to be treated by another physician, rather than treating themselves. When you are dealing with your own issues, regardless of their origin (physical, mental, emotional or spiritual), it’s nearly impossible to maintain perspective. This applies to holistic practitioners as well. That’s why it’s wise to seek assistance from a professional who has the skills to help you address your issue, but also maintains the proper perspective and distance to be affective. n
Of course, there are times when a healer most certainly handles things themselves. Cut fingers that don’t require sutures, treating the flu or a common cold usually do not require being seen by another professional because maintaining perspective is not necessary. The trick is disce
ing when it’s time to seek assistance from an outside source. That’s where I am with the issue of my unresolved fear. I have done all that I can do to address this situation and I have not obtained permanent relief or resolution. As a matter of fact, my fear has reached the point of almost being all-consuming. n
At the time of this writing… here’s what I know:

Of course, there are times when a healer most certainly handles things themselves. Cut fingers that don’t require sutures, treating the flu or a common cold usually do not require being seen by another professional because maintaining perspective is not necessary. The trick is disce
ing when it’s time to seek assistance from an outside source. That’s where I am with the issue of my unresolved fear. I have done all that I can do to address this situation and I have not obtained permanent relief or resolution. As a matter of fact, my fear has reached the point of almost being all-consuming. n
At the time of this writing… here’s what I know:

• The fear I’m dealing with does not fall into the False Evidence Appearing Real categoryn • More accurately, I would define my fear as: Frighteningly Effective Arrested Responseno My fear has me catalyzed! no It’s so compelling I’m at the point where I’ll do just about anything to avoid feeling it!no Its presence in my life is keeping me stuck in neutral and from progressing with my online business goals (which by the way, most assuredly is frustrating the living day lights out of my business coach – more on this later)no Sets up feelings of embarrassment, self-loathing, confusion, anger etc., because it has such a devastating grip on men • I’m consciously aware of what’s happening but I’ve not found a way to stop the process… not yet!no I define this behavior as a prime example of self-sabotagen • I am sick and tired of awakening each and every morning feeling my fear’s presence gripping my soul!
• It’s time for me to seek outside help from another professionaln • There is no known (at least consciously) life event that I can attribute to my fea
• On some level I know there is a connection to ‘fear of rejection’ at the base of this problemn • My choice is to utilize hypnosis as the process to address, then resolve this issuen • I’m so close to blowing this thing wide open that I cannot give up now!
• And lastly, that when I break through this barrier… I will soar!

I also know from the work I do with my clients that living one’s life in the grip of fear is not easy. Never could I have anticipated that fear would one day take over my life in this manner, let alone with this magnitude. I believe that all things happen for a reason. On some level I appreciate and understand that my experience with this issue will one day be an asset to my clients as well as myself. I know that there are great teachings that will surely pour forth as a result of the understanding I’ll surely gain from having traversed this raging river of fear. It’s just too hard to wrap my mind around that at the moment!

Join me for my next post when I reveal more details about my next step on my journey through fear.