Every Loving Thought Is True

Every Loving Thought Is True

By Rev. Marilyn Redmond

Many years ago I won an international writing contest with the story, “All Time Victim”. I am excited to share the solutions and healing that is now my “All Time Victory”. This is the rest of the story.
Over the past years, I came to understand the human dilemma. Excessive negative energy impacted my life beyond normal from an early age. Growing up with domestic violence and being in a violent marriage for thirty years, plunged me into depths of pain and despair. This included attempted suicide, incest, rape, mental illness, several addictions, and other medical ailments. My psychopathic husband tried to kill me multiple times. I lived in total fear. As a child my stepfather’s sex addiction sent my unmanageable life plummeting into “Hell on Earth”. My parents were unable to model life-skills, love, or guidance for my growth; therefore, I lived an existence of intimidation and fear.
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I heard the song, “Let there be peace on earth, and let it begin with me.” It presented a foreign idea, but enhanced understanding taught me that changing into a person of serenity and love also shifts my environment toward a calm, centered, and rational life style. n I could create a new reality rather than continue reacting to the past traumas, abuse, and false beliefs. My awareness revealed that change occurs only through personal honesty, with open-mindedness and willingness to transform. Therefore, constructive individual transformation affects my surroundings not the reverse. I found inner growth stops when external forces control or manipulate my thoughts or actions to conform to family, church, society, even medical procedures. n The individual journey of action to where good or love overcomes personal fears, is as simple as substituting the positive for each negative in past difficulties. As I outgrow the “boogeyman” I no longer live in a fear-based environment.
Nightmares dissolved after changing my focus. As I shifted to connecting with the spirit of Infinite Love, a higher awareness catapulted me into a higher reality. When releasing the negative influences, I awoke to all there is, is love. n My search for the truth deprogrammed the rules, traditions, and superstitions by which I had lived. I separated the truthful principles from the falsehoods in all parts of my life, including physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. I became an ambassador of loving energy. My purpose became living in affirmative principles and universal laws of love.
I found a pattern for healthiness by stopping prescription drugs and drinking. These toxic substances actually increase illness instead of allowing natural healing. Such substances are poisonous, suppress emotional growth, and stop spiritual connection. I realized that the absence of inner light results in personal darkness called depression. Another freedom came from understanding that Bipolar Disorder is another way to run away from reality like I did with drinking. My experience is that medicines used to treat Bipolar Disorder, depression, and other illness can inhibit the illumination of love which creates health. Side effects of medications for Bipolar Disorder forced me to create a medicine-free, solid, and rational foundation upon which to build appropriate actions, thinking, and emotions during acute times. All prescription drugs needed to stop for recovery from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and Anxiety.
Healing PTSD trained me to trust the Creative Intelligence of the universe, not the illusions from fear, to heal all the missing love and care I never received growing up. This created my new balanced foundation for living. n I began recovery by addressing physical difficulties. When the doctor identified a twice broken tailbone, I researched domestic violence and found it was a deeper form of addiction; usually affecting the soul. Through recovery from co-dependency, a part of domestic violence, I found my identity and empowered myself. Expressing my creative talents, art, music, writing, and speaking, healed my “woundedness”. Attracting a relationship of unconditional love with a healthy man became my test for progress in body, mind, and soul. n I believe medical problems are a wake-up call that something is wrong in the body, spirit and/or soul. They are red flags meant to initiate courage to change the part of my life not in harmony.
The next exploration was into the “mental” aspects of recovery. Fearful earmuffs prohibited hearing genuine information. It created difficultly when searching for truth. Letting in loving accuracy, to replace the false beliefs deeply conditioned from family, society, and even school, brought sanity. I let go of what does not serve me well and replace it with love and grace. Today, I choose to create a healthy life and enjoy living. While integrating the healing of my body, mind, and spirit, I found my inheritance is to live in a caring spirit as a whole person. n Edgar Cayce, the Father of Holistic Medicine, believed that mind is the builder. “Every loving thought is true.” Poverty, powerlessness, and illness came from ego driven pessimistic thoughts sabotaging abundant prosperity, personal authority, or physical health. Changing my focus, to a higher perception of finding the good in every circumstance, regenerated my thinking. Life is an inside job.
Previous negative, fear-based thinking was the problem. I got on my knees and released the helpless and hopeless thinking that reflected my parents’ fear, church dogma, society’s manipulation, and medicine’s narrow understanding. Changing my thoughts, I said, “Satan get thee behind me; I no longer want their ideas to run my life.”
I discovered that positive affirmations could replace old ideas. I asked for love to release my barriers that came from inflated ego or self. These caused my dis-ease, discord, chaos, irrational thinking, and excessive emotions. “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” I heard that Bible quote years before. Realizing that the universe supports me in all things was freedom to be myself.
More healing takes place with rigorous inner honesty. I grew into honesty and humility with the reduction of my fear- based self-centeredness. “I have lived in hell. I deserve to have the rest of my life in heaven,” I prayed. My request was granted. Opportunities for support and spiritual therapy appeared. This catapulted me into a powerful life-style because I could trust myself instead of looking for outward answers and confirmation of my worth. Right thinking, words, and actions produced the feeling I am a “good” person. I have value.
The third part of my search involved understanding emotions. I found fear was the basis of all problems in my life. Suppressing fear-based anger created self-delusion, self-seeking with self-pity, and buried resentments. Selfishness and self-centeredness kept me out of reality and actually produced a death wish. n My fearful self-will resulted in destructive emotions such as neediness, loneliness, victimization, and guilt. My self-defense mechanisms kept me in depressing sentiments. Conversely, unselfish, loving motivation results in high-quality feelings. I am free…free from fear.
I found new emotions resulted from altering my actions. Gradually, with new action and thinking, I felt naturally “good” and found a smile on my face with the encouraging energy shift. People call this living in the “Now”. Recently my test was attending my twin grandsons’ high school graduation with a feeling of calm, contentedness while my ex-husband also was there for this event. n Now, the challenge of being willing and ready to forgive emerged. To forgive others was easier than forgiving myself. Forgiveness for me means giving up past emotions for a new life. I saw that we are all making mistakes trying to protect ourselves. I don’t need to look to people for my well being only myself. I reacted to others aggressive ways perpetuated from their own wounds. The process of forgiving brings an intense positive energy shift. I moved into compassion for those that hurt me. n The last part came together with the decision to trust spiritual, loving guidance for helping my faith grow. Learning to sort the truth from the false became a long journey of discovery. I now chose to ask and listen for guidance and strength from spirit for all parts of my life including illness.
Science says that energy moves. When the blocked energy is released the flow of power allows healing and there are no symptoms needing pills. Ending the energy drain from my past issues elevates me to a height of a new consciousness. For me spirituality means living in love or positive vibrations of energy called spirit.
One way I can access that love and healing is with prayer and meditation. This brings victory over “self”. The process of renewing the mind and body through prayer and meditation helped restore my life.
The courage to change brought prodigious results. Now, on a basis of positive, loving feelings I experience bright, peaceful meadows in meditation. I am grateful for everything, the good, the bad, and the incomprehensible. I am blessed.
Because my parents could not love themselves, they could not love me. My use of “free will” allowed moving into oneness with an unconditional loving spirit, replacing the “poor me’s” and fears of the past. I developed an inner sense of wholeness, through practicing and employing faith.
I found the following quote true for me, “God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth”. I discovered that in honesty, with my spiritual life in order, the mental and emotional troubles, along with physical problems, will come into accordance with healthy energy and resolve themselves. Living in grace became my “Heaven on earth”. n In conclusion, Albert Schweitzer first said and Holistic Health Professionals, many Chiropractors, Homeopathic Doctors, and various Medical Doctors agree today that the secret is “all healing comes from within”. My experience shows rational living and healthiness come from a psychic change that manifests physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. When living in the Law of Love, the results are profound. It creates health, wholeness, love, prosperity, balance, and abundance in all aspects of life.
Over the last twenty-two years, my medical problems and major personal dilemmas have been healed drug free.
Living a life motivated from love, I can now help others overcome similar problems from my experience and wisdom. Passing on this knowledge bonds me in a unity of spirit with all. Today, there is peace on earth and it does begin with me.