High Anxiety

I went to Knoxville, Tennessee last weekend to teach an angel workshop with my dearest friend and partner, Jill. On the return flight I arrived at the airport and went to check in. I had one little carry on that I put in the overhead on the flight there with no problem. They asked me to put it in the box to see if it was small enough.
Well, my bag was one inch too big and didn't fit into the box. They made me pay an additional $20 to check my bag. I argued with them explaining it fit in the overhead, they didn't care. My ticket was not cheap by any means, however, I had no choice, so I angrily handed over my credit card.

I went on to ask for an aisle seat. I was informed in order to get preferential seating you had to pay an extra $15. The seat they assigned me was between to other people. I went on to complain that I get claustrophobic sitting in the middle. It didn't matter. They gave me my boarding pass and sent me on my merry way through security.

I noticed some red squiggly lines on my boarding pass so I was not all that surprised that since I showed anger and frustration, I was alerted as a high security risk! They had me step aside and patted me down and checked my purse for traces of explosives and dangerous objects. I proceeded on to the gate to find out that my flight had a two hour delay!

I became even more agitated when I realized the battery on my cell phone was getting low so I had to limit my telephone calls. I didn't have my battery charger because I was forced to check my bag! I felt alone, disconnected and helpless. I realized I had to accept what was happening in the moment. My frustration wasn't helping the situation. There was nothing I could do to change things, so I surrendered. It made me realize how little control we really have over things. The only thing we can control is our actions and emotions. I went into Ruby Tuesday's and had a glass of red wine and something to eat. I talked on the phone until my battery got really low and read my book. You gotta know when to just let things be!

I realize many of us are going through similar situations. The high gas prices are affecting everything. The cost of living in South Florida is outrageous. It's producing a lot of anxiety for everyone. Companies are used to making extraordinary profits and now that they are not, they are doing whatever it takes to reclaim their profits. People are reacting by buying and traveling less. This causes prices to go even higher and the cycle continues.

On a higher spiritual level I know what is happening is in Divine and right order. I know that the system has to fall in order for a new way of doing things to emerge. I realize that we have to go through this period of unease until a collapse occurs of the old system and a new one is forged. Right now it doesn't feel all that good to be "out there."

What I realized as the underlying reason for my anger and frustration about the airport incident is that I didn't feel cared for, valued or honored. I felt taken advantaged of and violated. Most companies and corporations are exhibiting such greed that they are doing very little to mask the motto, "the customer comes first". It feels like a free for all. It is making me very uncomfortable. I wish I could avoid it all, but, in actuality life goes on and things need to be dealt with on a daily basis.

This week I had scheduled my yearly check up at the doctors. I went through the same kind of beaurecrautic shuffle trying to get referrals and my basic needs met. It seems like I have to put in a lot of effort to stand up for my needs. Have you tried to call customer service to handle an issue on the phone? I have to pray, meditate and breathe in order to get through one of those phone calls!!!

I'm releasing the anxiety, frustration and anger as it comes up. I'm not wallowing in it. I'm taking time to meditate, pray, be in nature, and enjoy family and friendships. I make sure I disconnect from mass consciousness and connect with my divinity.

We are united together in this. I know it is affecting each of us on both a major and minor scale. What we have to remember is that we are all experiencing the anxiety. We are all feeling the pressure. We know that change needs to occur in a big way but we're not sure how or when.

In the meantime, we really need to love and value each other and ourselves. We need to find whatever way is best to release the tension building inside. I know the highly sensitives, that easily absorb this energy, are being severely affected. It is vital to be aware of what is happening and make a conscious effort to release it.

I trust that we will get passed this difficult stage in our evolution and find a way that all people and animals on this planet will be valued, loved and cared for. I hold this hope deep in my heart. I know you have the same wish as I do, and because we share this desire, I feel the true loving connection between us. Our uniting in Oneness is truly what this period is about....

Praye

Dear God, I am feeling so much frustration and anxiety. I am saddened by all the greed, chaos, and fighting going on in our world right now. I am experiencing the effects of what is happening in our world on a very personal level. It is bringing me fear and discomfort.
God, I trust you. I know there is a bigger plan at work here. God, I am here to help however I can. I choose to release all the thoughts and emotions that are not serving me. I ask that I be a vessel for your work.

I forgive myself and all others involved for not always acting consciously. I know that we are reacting to the conditions of what is happening around us.

I love and value myself. I love and honor those around me. I accept what is happening in this moment and I move gracefully through it.

My prayer to you, dear God/Goddess, would be for all of humanity to be united in finding a path to peace, love, and sharing. I hold the sacred space for a new way of living to be implemented. I envision a world where there is no more violence, hunger, poverty and greed. I can feel a more peaceful, loving time arriving for us all.

Please help us find a way our way! Illumine our minds. Illumine our hearts. Thank you.

And so it is.

Amen.