Journey Through Grief

I have worked on my grief for 10 years, 10 whole years. That loop of grief would get occasional relief, relief that would sometimes last a few weeks. Some of the edges were smoothed. There was hope that I would be whole again for a bit. I would fall back into that pit of grief every, single time for 10 years. I can’t even imagine the frustration my friends went through, trying to help me help myself with every, single modality that was available. I failed every time. I finally resigned myself to “make the best of it” (sigh). How am I helping others heal from their wounds, when I can’t even help myself ?
And yet, I am helping others. I have their testimonials. I can see how their lives have changed for the better. How come I can do for others what I wish and pray for myself?

Questions would form. Is it Karma? What have I done in a past life that I am paying for here? How about Psychic Cords? How many do I have? How can I get rid of them? Is it a curse? Is it a contract? Did I put it on myself? Did someone from another lifetime do it? Is my soul shattered? Do I need a soul retrival? Uhhh...ya think? Didn’t I get enough love? Am I truly not enough? Do I truly not deserve? Is it in the water? How about vitamins and minerals? How about diet?

The healing needle in the haystack was never found. Aaargh.....the frustration and hopelessness levels at times went off the charts, And, I would work on each and every possible solution as it came up.

I went to Corey Herter’s weekend workshop and I could see everyone around me getting relief from all sorts of pain and I could see their healing. I saw years melt away from their faces, eyes brighten, people got taller. Huh? Here we go again!!! One more thing that won’t work for me, but, it will work for you. That is enough for me, it has had to be enough!!!

On the second day of the 2 day workshop, we were doing the Breath of LOVE in triads. My turn came, I was sobbing uncontrollably. Jay Joseph and Jodi Flesberg Lilly were my partners. I think we went through 2 or 3 levels.......and it was gone. I could not find the grief lurking around. We broke the loop. OMG, it was like turning off a switch. I do not have to live there anymore. The grief is gone to this day. Sure, I miss him at times. Sure, I remember the love we shared. Of course, I would prefer to have him around in the physical.

I have not “had to” be in grief since that day. The memories stay, and I remember so much more, without feeling the loss. The life we shared has taken on a gentleness, a tenderness that has been missing for 10 years. That life has finally integrated into this life. A balance has been achieved. The prison of grief is gone!!

And.........the true healing started with Cory Herter's Sacred G Breath.

Bless you Core, you will always be my hero and mentor !!!

Josephine has become proficient in the Sacred G Breath, Breath Of LOVE, EFT, QE, QT, Reiki, Crystals and Tuning forks, The “Why” Question, and “Be Set Free Fast”

Josephine offers customized phone sessions and workshops. For more information http://www.stressrez.webs.com or call 702 339 1815 email: nrgflowing@gmail.com