Marjean Holden on Self-Development And Achieving Success

After going through a very challenging relationship, I was looking for a new plug of energy to instill in my life. I found a course where I liked the conversation, I liked the fact that they were working on belief systems and moving through financial blocks and things like that. Just really loved the energy, loved the people, met some wonderful people and when I was there I really noticed there weren't any females on the stage.

I thought well, you know that's something I could do and I really loved the message, I loved the energy. So let me go forward and see how that process works. The head of the company said, "Hey, we think you'd be really good, after one of the courses, we think you'd be a good fit for a trainer. What do you want to do?" I told them exactly what I wanted to teach and they said, "oh OK, that's interesting. Great."

So, then the pathway started for training to actually lead the courses and be in that position. And it was really, very fulfilling to be able to give, and put forth that information so that others could make transformation in their lives.

I think for me the greatest satisfaction with training is having someone come back to me years later saying, "You said something to me and you completely changed my life". Most of the time, I won't even know what it is I said, because I just allow spirit, my higher self, to work through me, when I am in those situations.

I'd say that the energy comes through that they need at the moment and a lot of time it's like "God, "what did I say?" I don't recall what I said. You know, it's just allowing spirit to move and that's just beautiful. It's beautiful to transfer that energy that way.

I think that my greatest frustration being a trainer has been being away from home a lot or having been in the past away from home a lot. Some of the areas from my own life that I look at and go "OK I can step it up there and I can step it up there" in the ways I deal with business or in the ways which I deal with certain aspects of the business.

Sometimes it's frustrating that there's a distinction in that there aren't a lot of females on stage. I say, "OK women, come on, get on stage, get yourselves out there, you have lots to say". It's a very masculine energy dominated field, that's been a frustration, because there definitely needs to be more feminine energy in that arena.

There have been many times in my life where I didn't feel successful or secure, many, many, many times, I would say, even now. Particularly not feeling as strong and as powerful as I feel I would like to, being in the end of my training path. But I am moving through my own transitions and making the transition back into my first love of film and television and back in the entertainment industry.

So, everything is new and everything is changing and the whole path won't change but there's been plenty of times, even when I've been at a very high level of what I consider for me to be successful, that I felt like, "wow, I know I can achieve more, I know I can be more, I know I can contribute more, I know I can allow myself the space to follow my heart more".

So, there's been definite moments where I've just gone, "Arhhhh, OK, ah, what do I do?", "Where do I go?" It's in those moments where I just have to be still and go OK, "Alright Spirit, God, where am I moving now?", "What steps do I take now?"

We all experience moments of self doubt. But you know it's just expanding your container. It's like the more you expand your container you say "OK, now, I am going to this next level". It's like out of the comfort zone because there are new things that come up".

There's more of everything as you climb the success ladder, even for yourself, you know what you deem to be the success ladder. It's not ever about anybody else and what they perceive, because no matter where you are at somebody is going to look at you and go "Wow, you're incredibly successful".

But for yourself you may be saying, "Yeah, I am" and for me personally I've had great moments, where I said, "God, you're really accomplishing something and this is really great. Congratulations Marjean, you've done a great job. Look at how far you've come, look at how far you've come, look at what you've accomplished, look at what you have achieved, good for you, good for you." Now what else do you want to create?

Just approve of you "I've done well, wow". And saying it and really getting into that feeling and in the emotion of saying, "yeah, you know what? I have accomplished a lot, wow I can be really, really pleased with myself."