Donna Torbico

PBK

Free

HEAL & GROW for ACoAs Expert

Donna Torbico

Donna Torbico Quick Facts

Main Areas
ACoAs - Adult-Children of Alcoholics & other Narcissists
Career Focus
Psychotherapist, Private Practice
Affiliation
NaCoA

Donna M Torbico

I’m an NYC Recovery psychotherapist for ACoAs, in private practice for 23 years, the daughter of a missionary family & granddaughter of alcoholics, on both sides.

I knew in grammar school that my calling was to help people heal their inner wounds & am grateful to have been doing that, with God’s help, for so many years. I graduated from Hunter College in ’85, (Phi Beta Kappa) & have been a member of Al-Anon for over 30 years.

I’ve appeared on radio, television & at New Life Expo, created & presented ACoA / Al-Anon intensive weekend workshops & ran an ACoA therapy group for 6 years. I was an instructor at the NY Open Center for 9 yrs, presenting my 12-week interactive lecture course – “KNOWLEDGE is POWER: What makes an ACoA” which I now teach elsewhere.

I’m married to Steve Bakkali, who designs & produces lamps, chandeliers & other interiors and we have 2 cats, Sweetie & Jazz. I also design & make knitted & crocheted sweaters, having gone to F.I.T. & worked in the fashion industry for 6 years before beginning my therapy career.

CLIENTS: Among a variety of clients, many are highly sensitive, creative/artistic people. All have benefited from my Pisces intuition & Gemini knowledge. In most cases they have said that it was the first time they were heard & understood or had a safe place to express their intense emotions. Humor is also an important part of sessions, when appropriate, for it’s healing quality & to balance out the intensity of ACoA suffering.

I work with ACoAs of all ages from 18 to 85. Over the years, people have continued their therapy by phone from many different place, including South America, Califo ia, NY State, NJ, Fla, Chicago, Europe & India.

FOCUS: The hallmark of ACoAs is their deep-rooted fear of being abandoned and their intense self-hate. Self-hate is when we blame ourselves for being hurt, rather that understanding that almost nothing people do TO us has to do WITH us!

So, my work focuses on helping clients:
• Identify & validate the pain of their early experiences
• Find their negative self-talk (Toxic Rules) & change it, to grow self-esteem
• Learn how to communicate with their Inner Child
• Have permission to own & feel all their emotions and express them safely
• Experience living well in the world, use their talents & have fun!

For Testimonials & more details ‘about me’ go to: www.acoarecovery.com (90 pages of ACoA info)

I offer a FREE intro session to see if we’re compatible

Articles by this expert

SelfGrowth articles and saved writing connected to this expert.

20 total
A

Article

For ACoAs- (Adult-Children of alcoholics, abusers, abandoners & other narcissists) ACoAs know how they would like their life to be: TO have a fulfilling career, loving relationships, less pressure, a little fun... and they try, struggle, obsess - but not much changes. They become more & more frustrated & depressed. They grew up around chaos addictions, criticism, rage, depression, abuse & neglect.

Recently added

A

Article

Definition of LONELINESS (L) • Sadness resulting from being forsaken or abandoned • Feeling a strong sense of emptiness, yearning, distress and solitude, from an inadequate quantity or quality of social relationships • Social pain — a psychological mechanism meant to alert people of being too isolated, which can motivate them to seek social connections • Dejected or desolate by the awareness of being alone, without companions. Separation between persons or groupsrnâ¶ Loneliness is a natural phenomenon, since humans are social creatures by nature. Too much of it is crippling. QUOTESr

Recently added

A

Article

"I KNOW WHAT YOU NEED! I can take care of you, but not myself" Growing up in dysfunctional families, ACoAs were not allowed to fully develop their own personality & identity, attend to their own needs, or have their own feelings – about anything. We had no choice but to focus on our wounded parents and their needs, moods & demands. (see ‘Toxic rules’) • we were expected to grow up too fast - but only so we could relieve them of the burden of caring for us AND so we could be there for themr

Recently added

A

Article

"I LIKE HELPING! As long as I take care of myself in the process" ⦠Many ACoAs are trained from birth to be helpers, regardless of their native personality style & interests. There’s an ironic saying in recovery circles: “ACOAs are born with an MSW (Masters in Social Work) and get their Birth Certificate later”!

Recently added

A

Article

Guilt is not a primary emotion, like anger, joy, sadness... But it is one of the most intense & often-felt emotions by ACoAs. It is a familiar companion of negative self-talk & to actions we believe to be bad, but may not be. Guilt is connected to self-hate: since our default position is that we’re intrinsically bad, anything & everything that goes wrong for us is OUR FAULT. This leads to perfectionism - the obsession about being soooo good, without flaws - that we’ll finally be loved, accepted, understood... BY WHOM? Of course - our family --- & then everyone else in the whole world !

Recently added

A

Article

THE BAD SEED I was born bad & I’ll always be bad Guilt is about actions - it’s the emotion which is caused by disobedience to rules we deeply believe in. On the other hand, SHAME is about our identity - about who we are, fundamentally. It says that our very essence is bad, unlovable, unacceptable - to be eliminated. It makes us: • want to hide, isolate, not talk, try to be invisible • want to be dead! The pain of shame is so great & the conviction that we’re un-redeemable is so deep (not worth saving), that it eliminates Hope. Why bother even trying!r

Recently added

A

Article

I’M NO GOOD & EVERYONE KNOWS ITrnso I have to be perfect to make up for it Self-Hate is the #1 deterrent to growth for all ACoAs. It undermines our ability to function well, to have self-esteem & to be happy. Some people call it being ‘hard on yourself”, but it’s much more than that. It’s so pervasive in the inner world of many ACoAs, that we don’t even know we have it & if confronted, vehemently deny it. BUT the symptoms are all there, starting with a persistent nagging anxiety. DEF:

Recently added

A

Article

NOBODY LOVES ME - I’m going to eat worms & die! Part 1: Essence, Source - Past & Present PURPOSE for S-H - TO: • protect our ideal of having good, loving, safe parents • protect us from feeling our old abandonment pain • keep from risking change (fear we’ll die if we S & I) • keep us attached to the family (stave off deep loneliness) • prevent us from dealing with ‘ugly emotions’ like our rage, envy, longing, hopelessness... • protects us from Growing up, taking care of ourselves (we want to be taken care of! no matter what the cost is) â¼ WHY IS IT SO HARD TO GIVE UP S-H?r

Recently added

A

Article

OWNING MY T.E.A You may push my buttons, but I’m responsible for my Thoughts, Emotion & Actions WHAT IS IT? In it’s simplest form: honestly admitting, to ourselves, first of all, what we feel, think & have done - or - not. (Review T.E.A. - Thoughts, Emotions, Actions, pg 54 ) “I cannot tell a lie - I chopped down the apple tree”. Abe Lincoln. And if possible, acknowledge these without judgment, without shame, without guilt. MOST of ALL - without self-hate. BENEFITS:rnâ¶ it eliminates the need for spinrnâ¶ it significantly reduces guilt & shamer

Recently added

A

Article

We hear a lot in the ‘spiritual’ community about forgiveness- ie - not blaming. That applies to the present - if you’re an adult. And that’s a discussion for another blog. BUT this entry is about what happened TO US as children. A hallmark of alcoholic (& other emotionally unhealthy) families is the mistreatment of their children in all 4 of life’s aspects: Spiritual, Emotional, Mental, Physical. rnâ¼ PARENTAL BLAME is abuse in the first 3 categories !

Recently added

A

Article

pgs. = http://www.acoarecovery.com – Then click on SITE MAP ACoAs = adult-children of alcoholics & other abusersr A = Abandonmentrn(A) = Adultr As = Actions A/A = Abuse & Abandonment AC = Adapted Child AEC = Adult Ego State B = Boundaries B.P. = Bad Parent (same as IT) (C) = Child CDs = Cognitive Distortions CES = Child’s Ego State C-R = Cognitive Restructuring Es = Emotions E.S. = Ego States FoA = Fear of abandonmentr FoC = Fear of commitmentr FoO = Family of Originr FoV = Fear of Visibility

Recently added

A

Article

YES, I WAS HURT BY MY FAMILY, but they were hurting too, poor things! This is a phrase I’ve heard over the years, & it always makes me mad. You may at first think this post is harsh or unfair, BUT please remember that everything our parents were - WE internalized into our Negative Introject. As long as we deny how harmful their actions were toward us - we will continue doing the same to ourselves, mistreat others AND be mistreated as well! (see posts on ‘The Introject’ & ‘Self-hate’). What does this phrase mean?r

Recently added

Websites & resources

SelfGrowth-published websites, downloads, and contributor profile websites connected to this expert.

2 total

Favorite Quotes & Thoughts from Donna Torbico

Winston Churchill: "The farther back you can look, the farther forward you can see."

Suggested reading --- The Body Never Lies: The Lingering Effects of Hurtful Parenting by Alice Miller, Andrew Jenkins An examination of childhood trauma and its surreptitious, debilitating effects by one of the world's leading psychoanalysts.

Contacting Donna Torbico

email: acoarecovery@yahoo.com

phone: 212-580-9631 (NY, NY)

Skype available

How to get started

Please read my Expert Articles

Visit the 80+ pages of my website: www.acoarecovery.com